I guess it's been a really, really long time since I've updated this thing. So I figured I probably should.

I've been obscenely busy recently. Work, school and endless drama. I am drained in every way imaginable. I don't really know what I ought to be saying in this journal, seeing as all the stuff that has been going on lately isn't really the kind of thing I am inclined to advertise on the internet. Call me crazy.

So I guess the point of this journal is me discovering I have nothing to say. Huzzah.

Let's do a quiz.

Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy? Nope. It's a bunch of number.

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them? Understand me.

Are you a girly girl? There are some things about me that are really girly. But in general, no.

Big or small purses? Mediumish. It just has to be big enough to fit my journal...

Do you enjoy drama? I enjoy the class. The childish goings on between highschool students, not so much.

Did you dress up on Halloween? Sure did. I was a witch.

Do you call anybody by their last name? A couple people.

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth? I can, but I naturally open my mouth when I go to put it on.

Have you ever been called a bad influence? Many times, unfortunately. Then again, I probably am in a lot of respects.

Do you think your pretty, honestly? Sometimes. Sometimes not. I think everyone's like that though.

Eyeliner or mascara? Mascara. I only wear eyeliner if I really want to make a statement.

American Eagle or Hollister? American Eagle.

Heels or flats? Flats. I'm an accident waiting to happen in heels.

Skirts or jeans? Jeans, for sure.

Straight or curly hair? Straight. My hair doesn't hold curls well.

Hoops or dangling earrings? Hoops.

Have you ever had your heart broken? Kind of. I thought it was broken at the time, anyways.

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys? Dark, usually. Although I'm beginning to reconsider that.

Do you have a best friend? I have four. And I couldn't live without them.

Do you like your life? Most of the time. I have my moments, though.

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom? Accidently? Yes. Intentionally? Also yes. Hahaha.

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on? Nope. I've been pushed though.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind? Hasn't everyone?

Do you ever wish you were famous? Well, it would depend on what I was famous for, wouldn't it?

IN A BOY

Preppy or Punk/goth? Punk-ish, usually.

Contacts or Glasses? Either. As long as the glasses look alright.

Good cook or take you out a lot? Mmm. Good cook, for sure.

Funny or Serious? Both is essential.

Cute or Hot? Usually, cute. Though hot is good too.

Long or short hair? I find longer to be preferable on most guys.

Smoker or non-smoker? Non-smoker. Being with guys that smoke tends to make it harder for me to kick the habit.

Tall or short? Taller than me.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Die. Because that would mean a lot of terrible things happened and it would totally fuck up my life. He's to essential as a friend.

If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, would you do it? Obviously. Life is way too precious to give up just to avoid one drug indulgence.

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive? Kelsey and I have already decided that we would both survive easily.

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friend? Grade seven, I believe. At WEM with Sarah and Emily.

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them? Oh yeah. Who hasn't?

On average what do you think you cry about the most? Stupid things, usually. Boys, embarrassingly. Life, obviously.

Who was the last guy you talked to? In person? Stephen.

Do you think best friends can be replaced? Not replaced. No one can ever be replaced. But friendships to end and others begin. That's just how life goes.

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot? Yes. In a lot of different ways.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? I really hope so. In fact, I would feel safe saying yes.

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to? S.J., S.B., M.W., J.V.G.

What friend do you tell the most? The above four.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Stephen, last night.

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes? Hahaha, on the sidewalk outside of Trevor's house last Saturday...

Are you going anywhere next summer? SICAMOUS, B.C. 77 daysss!

Are you waiting for anyone's text right now? Not really, no.

Are you shy? It depends on the situation.

Are you talkative? Again, depends on the situation.

Do you secretly like someone? I'd rather not discuss that particular line of inquiry. Which basically means yes.

Are you good at hiding your feelings? In front of most people. But my best friends always know when something is bothering me.

How is life going for you right now? Pretty well, I would have to say.

Do you trust people easily? Yes, actually. Which tends to get me into trouble.

Do you give out second chances easily? Depends on what they did with the first chance.

Do you smile a lot? Sure do.

One thing you're looking forward to? School to finish.

How do you feel about change? Sometimes it sucks, sometimes it's awesome.

Have you ever cried from being so mad? I usually cry when I'm really mad.

Last time you got a text message and smiled? Earlier today.

Are you happy? I could be happier, but I'm pretty good, all things considered.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Not really.

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself? I love being by myself, but I need people as well.
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? Oh, probably.

First person to text today? Mack.

Well, that killed some time. LET'S DO ANOTHER ONE!

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Milk.
2. Last phone call: Work.
3. Last text message: Mack.
4. Last song you listened to: Shine by The Morning Of.
5. Dated someone twice: No. But almost.
6. Been cheated on: Not that I know of. But probably.
7. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes.
8. Lost someone special: Yes.
9. Been depressed: Clinically and everything.
10. Been drunk and threw up: Not yet, actually. Surprising, isn't it?

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
11. Blue.
12. Green.
13. Grey.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
14. Made a new friend: Yes. Thank god.
15. Fallen out of love: Hmmmm. Yes and no.
16. Laughed until you cried: Oh yes. SARAH.
17. Met someone who changed you: Without a doubt.
18. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.
19. Found out someone was talking about you: Unfortunately, yes.
20. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list: Yes.

GENERAL:
21. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life: Everyone, I'm pretty sure.
22. How many kids do you want to have: None. Unless I adopt, in which case, one.
23. Do you have any pets: No.
24. Do you want to change your name: No. I'm okay with it now. I used to hate it.
25. What did you do for your last birthday: Ummm. Nothing actually. Aside from the usual family shizz.
26. What time did you wake up today: 11:00, I believe.
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Getting into bed.
28. Name something you CANNOT wait for: School to finish.
29. Last time you saw your Mother: Like, five minutes ago.
30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: Try to curb my tongue a little in some past situations.
31. What are you listening to right now: Pilot To Base by The Morning Of.
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes.
33. What's getting on your nerves right now: My headache.
34. Most visited webpage: Facebook, probably.
35. Nicknames: Kenzie. Kenz. Mack. Macks. Plus many that have nothing to do with my actual name.
36. Relationship Status: Single.
37. Zodiac sign: Pisces.
38. Male or female?: Uhhh, female. What a stupid question. Guys never do quizzes like this.
39. Elementary?: Calgary Christian School. I'm a lifer, haha.
40. Middle School: Calgary Christian School.
41. High school/College: Calgary Christian School. Are you detecting a pattern yet?
42. Hair colour: Blonde.
43. Long or short: I dunno. I guess it's still pretty short. But it's long by my standards.
44. Height: 5' 5".
45. Do you have a crush on someone?: Mmmmyes.
46: What do you like about yourself?: Most things.
47. Piercings: I have seven.
48. Tattoos: None, yet.
49. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :
50. First surgery: Appendix removal.
51. First piercing: Ears.
52. First best friend: Ty.
53. First sport you joined: Do swimming lessons count? If not, then gymnastics.
54. First vacation: That I remember? Utah.
55. First pair of trainers: Trainers...?

RIGHT NOW
56. Eating: Nothing.
57. Drinking: Water.
58. I'm about to: Go outside and sit around the fire.
59. Listening to: You Vs. The World by The Morning Of.
60. Waiting on: A text message that might just be wishful thinking...

YOUR FUTURE :
61. Want kids?: Not really, no.
62. Get Married?: No.
63. Career?: Writing. Specifically, travel journalism while writing novels on the side.

WHICH IS BETTER :
64. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
65. Hugs or kisses: Both.
66. Shorter or taller?: Taller.
67. Older or Younger: I don't really care. Not too much younger though.
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Can I have both, please?
70. Sensitive or loud: Hahaha, BOTH. I want it all, baby!
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship, usually.
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker.
73. Sexy or cute: Both. Though I'd take cute over sexy.

HAVE YOU EVER :
74. Kissed a stranger: Yes.
75. Drank hard liquor: Yeahh.
76. Lost glasses/contacts: Considering I don't wear them, no.
77. Sex on first date: Never. That is slutty au max.
78. Broken someone's heart: I don't think so. Maybe...
79. Had your own heart broken: I dunno. It felt like it was broken at the time...
80. Been arrested: No, thank god.
81. Turned someone down: Yes.
82. Cried when someone died: Absolutely.
83. Fallen for a friend?: Accidently, but yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. Yourself: Yes.
85. Miracles: Yes.
86. Love at first sight: Love? No. Lust? Yes.
87. Heaven: Yes.
88. Santa Claus: Well, who else would put the presents under the tree?
89. Kiss on the first date: Yes.
90. Angels: Yes.
91. Long distance relationships: Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
92. Had more than one bf/gf?: Over all? Yes. At once? No.
93. Did you sing today?: Yes.
94. Ever cheated on somebody?: Yes.
95. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why?: I wouldn't.
96. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Screw last year. I would relive May 5th, 2009.
97. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Terrified.
98. What time is it now?: 7:46 PM
99. Do you prefer day or night?: Warm nights, please.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: I'm not really posting it as anything...

Okay, I'm done now...